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Bucky Barnes | The Winter Soldier ([personal profile] ostavil) wrote2024-05-20 07:38 pm

soulmarks - for natasha

Steve had called him "Bucky" but he has no attachment to the name. He's only been called soldat for years and years so having a name washes over him like water and doesn't leave anything permanent behind. He knows other people's names because it's important to do so - Steve, who claims that he knows him. Tony, who comes and does tests on his arm. Bruce, who makes him talk about his emotions. None of them have any impact other than Natasha, the one with the mark.

He doesn't remember her. He simply knows that the spider behind his ear matches the spider on her wrist. He knows that he shot her in their fight and he knows that he missed. He never misses. She was close enough for him to take a headshot or one in the chest but he chose her shoulder instead, non-fatal, and let her live. Injured, yes, but very much alive.

When he hears footsteps approaching the door he knows that it's her. They're light in such a way that it feels like she never wants to leave visible tracks, like she slips through doors and buildings and roles in a way that no one else can. She's the one he wants to talk to the most. The door is locked from the outside and while he thinks he could break out of this room, he doesn't. He behaves, for the most part, because he's been behaving the entire time he's been alive.

"I'm still in here," he says. He doesn't know if that's a comfort or not. He's sitting cross-legged on the floor instead of using the bed or the chair; neither of those things feel like his right now. "You can come in."
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[personal profile] widowsdance 2024-05-21 12:33 am (UTC)(link)
She was not actually planning on coming in. In fact she was going to the kitchen because she's hungry but she hears him call out and she can't not stop as she backtracks do the door and opens it more then the crack it already was.

He's sitting on the floor which as far she can tell he does a lot now. It's not that surprising but it's always in the same position which is interesting. Don't his legs ever fall asleep?

"Bold of you to make assumptions that I was trying to bother you, Barnes." It's nothing gentle like the others are with him. She doesn't have time for such things.
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[personal profile] widowsdance 2024-05-21 01:19 am (UTC)(link)
She tugs down her sleeve to cover it further, even though it's already covered at the moment. Like she's being protective of the mark. She's still leaning against the doorway like she can't decide if she's going to come in or not.

"You know it's rude to just ask people about their marks right?" she says with a frown.

It's a purposefully choice to ignore the first comment. She does want to figure him out, or rather, she wants him to figure himself out. She's still just not sure the way people are going about it is the right away and it makes her uncomfortable. Forcing things doesn't ever feel like the right answer.

"I was going to go get coffee, you are welcome to join me if you make an effort to be more polite," she says and motions with her head towards the kitchen.
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[personal profile] widowsdance 2024-05-21 01:56 am (UTC)(link)
She heads to the kitchen and lets him follow, simply giving him a nod as though she's accepted his apology. It wouldn't be rude, if they knew each other at all in this moment, but it's too much and she's not ready to cross that threshold with him yet.

She goes to pull out coffee mugs.

"Do you know how you like your coffee or should I make it a few ways and you can try some?" she asks. When he'd get wiped in the red room sometimes it took him a while to find his favorites. She's pretty sure she knows how he'll take his coffee but it's good to have options so he knows exactly what he wants.
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[personal profile] widowsdance 2024-05-21 10:31 pm (UTC)(link)
She gives him a nod and takes out four cups of coffee. One she fixes for herself the other three she makes leaves one black, adds milk to one, and adds milk and sugar to the third bringing the three cups over to the island in the kitchen and setting them down for him.

"If you like one of those more then the others we can go from there," she says but she doesn't reference the mark again. Instead she takes a sip of her own coffee and goes to look into the fridge to try to find some food and settles on leftover Chinese from the night before that someone had picked up for take out and brings out a couple of boxes.

"Not knowing what you like is a good excuse to try everything, see what fits. I doesn't particularly matter what you used to do, or like. It just matters what you enjoy now," she says carefully as she opens a box and proceeds to eat cold shrimp right out of it.
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[personal profile] widowsdance 2024-05-22 01:04 am (UTC)(link)
It's smart, but she doesn't comment on it. Doesn't want to draw attention to the fact to anything he might be embarrassed about. She opens the next box and finds some sort of beef noodle dish that she takes another bite of.

"You don't have to apologize," she says with a shrug. It's easy breezy, something like that.

"Did you want to try some food?"
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[personal profile] widowsdance 2024-05-22 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
She's tempted to say yes but it get's a smile on her face and she goes to the drawer to get him a fork sliding it across the island as well as a couple of containers of the food. She's too lazy to get plates and if people are bothered they can order new food from Jarvis to have delivered.

"They're called chopsticks by the way," and it dawns on her that he hadn't actually asked and maybe she shouldn't be giving the information, "- incase you were wondering."