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James Buchanan Barnes MCU AGE: 30s appearance; 101 naturally DOB: 10 March 1917 HOMETOWN: Brooklyn, NY COURT ALIGNMENT: Winter Court PB: Sebastian Stan HAIR: Brown EYES: Blue HEIGHT: 6'0 COMPLEXION: Caucasian ♪♪♪ ✉ © The Ghost. The Asset. Bucky is a man on a journey to rediscover who he is. Unlike Steve, who stayed frozen in ice for 70 years, Bucky was found by HYDRA and turned into the ultimate weapon. The super-soldier serum was used on him along with extensive brainwashing so that Bucky could be controlled by a set of Russian codewords and sent to complete any mission, at any cost. Between these times, he was put back on ice and Bucky has memories that he cannot place, times that he's been merely a passenger in his body while he's done horrific things. He's been the hand to turn the tide of history when things aren't going HYDRA's way - JFK assassination, murder of Howard and Maria Stark, taking out a nuclear scientist in Odessa. Horrific acts for a man who doesn't want to be horrific and it only complicates matters that each time that Bucky started waking up and questioning his programming, he'd gotten frozen again and reprogrammed. There's gaps in his mind that he doesn't think he'll ever recover and, truly, Bucky is a little afraid of what he might see. It's getting better now. He's been recovered by the Avengers and after a stint by himself in Romania and later, in Wakanda, Bucky is starting to put together his own identity. Before HYDRA and before the war, he'd been kind of a ladies man and the consummate flirt, the smooth-talking charmer to Steve Rogers' earnest man. Some of that is still buried deep within Bucky and can come out occasionally but there's other things, dark things, that make him wary to be close to anyone. He doesn't know when someone is going to inadvertently trigger one of the land mines in his memory and he doesn't want to be responsible for hurting anyone else; he's hurt too many people and the guilt is almost too much to bear. Bucky wants to be a force for good. When he'd first gotten orders for the Army, he'd been optimistic about his role in the war and had hoped to help America win it. Being a prisoner of HYDRA and the Nazis the first time around cured a little of that wide-eyed optimism but being a part of the Howling Commandos brought it back full force. Bucky wants to do his share in a fight and he wants to make sure the people around him are safe - even if it means pushing them away because he is the unsafe thing. Bucky is still piecing together his past, reconciling what he'd been with HYDRA to the man he wants to be now. He's not as fragile as he once was and he has a firmer grip on his sense of self but he still stumbles from time to time. He struggles with intimacy because he doesn't know himself, so how can he know someone else? How can he give himself over to another person when he doesn't know what there is to give? How is that fair? He's still figuring it out, overall, and signing a contract with a faery court in Ainmhian is a way to make that happen. POWERS/ABILITIES: Enhanced healing, enhanced stamina, delayed aging. Bucky also has a left arm made of vibranium that can pack one hell of a punch.